hard out here

 Oh my. Oh my. Oh my.
I've got a lot of things to post, I've got a lot of stuff to shoot and I've just got a lot of everything. This is one reason for which I'd like to come back to regular life from holiday mode, cause as I do have outfits to post I just can't wait to create something new.
And finally, I've got my new computer baby what means that I'm now officially addicted to editing pics and just like wow, it works so fast and I can do so much more than before. So behold, my grafic skills aka *whatwillhappenificlickthisbutton* will be surely visible in next posts.

This was my another attempt of going colors, with a comic skater skirt, striped blazer, lilac creepers. With a hoodie over it, even if it is one of the warmest winters ever it's still not summer (thank you, Captain Obvious!) :D

There's New Years Eve in two days and I totally don't feel like dressing up. I mean, I'm a dress person all the time, necklaces and shit, so I just think of going all casual. Oh well, we'll see.

P.S. Bigger pics, whatcha think?

pics by

skirt - TK Maxx (London)
shoes - Deezee - god, they look nice but I have to find some quality creepers
hoodie&blazer - thrifted
suspenders - H&M (men)
necklace - New Yorker

Jeez I love her. I used to type her name in YT to check if she created something new- without any hope - and then... she's back in game, she made this amazing kinda parody about 21st century music industry. You go Lil.
I suppose I should tell you what this bitch is thinking
You'll find me in the studio and not in the kitchenI won't be bragging 'bout my cars or talking 'bout my chainsDon't need to shake my ass for you 'cause I've got a brain
You're not a size six, and you're not good looking
Well you better be rich, or be real good at cooking
You should probably lose some weight
'Cause we can't see your bones
You should probably fix your face or you'll end up on your own


never let me go

I just looked at the calendar and I really can't belive it - Christmas, for sure? Like seriously? So yeah, it isn't a Christmas post but the first from a loooot of ones I need to post - so even though I may stay without a photographer for next two weeks as you know, family stuff everybody etc I gor a reserve. Like a squirrel.

So I tried to put on some colorful, bright outfit like in the good old days, matching a mustard with fuchsia (sounds yum! XD) What can I say - I like it, but my dark side is calling me. I think I'll have to create alter ego as my internet bestie (<3) told me to. This looks as a way to get in the control of my little own chaos... Huh. I'll have to write it all down.

Happy Birthday, Happy Easter, Merry Christmas, Mazel Tov
trick or treat
choose your wish!

shoes - Topshop
sweater - thrifted
skirt - Asos/charity in London
necklace - Bershka (I guess)

I was more into Lungs always, but lately I'm re-discovering Ceremonials (what reminds me to post something Flo related soon!)
And the arms of the ocean are carrying me,
And all this devotion was rushing out of me,
And the crashes are heaven for a sinner like me,
But the arms of the ocean delivered me.

Though the pressure's hard to take,
It's the only way I can escape,
It seems a heavy choice to make,
Now I am under.

And it's breaking over me,
A thousand miles down to the sea bed,
I found the place to rest my head.



 I've got a tons of quality pics to post. But I'd feel kinda unfair if I publish them right now when it seems like they have nothing to do with who I am at this very moment.
And today, my friends, I'm mad and unsure of my place in the universe.

i'm a driver, i'm a winner
things are gonna change, i can feel it

You can see your mind as a closed world, and therefore a illusion can be created in it almost without anything from the outside. You can choose to transform whatever you like to something different. You can make meaningless things important or you can play subjectively significant things down. And the thought evolve and it becomes so overwhelming it practically owns you; and then you can make the step and face the reality; compare it to what you've already have going on in your head.
A confirmation of what you thought is a great thing as you can live your life in an amazingly designed harmony.
A failure can make you want to develop. It's like a cold shower that is desired even despite it's roughness because it leads you to the real world that you can also modify; now, when you're done with your delusions.
You're free.
I'm free.

yo, cut it
you can't write if you can't relate


knee deep//st.tropez - France holiday '13

It's December, isn't it? So it means it was like a bit less than half of year ago. With about 800 pictures I couldn't even decide if I should take the challenge of posting a photo diary, but as I had two days off school and I'm after the biggest part of exams - and it also really cold outside I decided to warm it up with some summer memories. So here is a pic heavy bunch of them.
So just after the end of the school year we started our trip to French Riviera, where a friend of my parents lives. Sightseeing around, we also were at Aiguille du Midi (oh french, I had to google it to avoid mistakes) to be just about 10 meters from the top of Mont Blanc as well as we visited the inside of Swiss glacials.
How could I even think it was too hot?! *freezes*
If you'd like to have even better look at those days, here are two outfits from France I posted in July: live or die and expectations.
So enjoy and share your thoughts!

P.S. And yeah, as said in my beloved HIMYM - you're not a New Yorker until you meet Woody Allen.
Sooo even though it happend in a little French town - it counts! Now all I have to do is move to the city I fell in love with few years ago when I first visited it.

The first one is my ultimate holiday song since 2011. And the second one... Ok, Lana&St.Tropez, enough said!
Gonna put the the world away for a minute 
Pretend I don't live in it 
Sunshine gonna wash my blues away 

Wishing I was knee deep in the water somewhere 
Got the blue sky breeze and it don't seem fair 
Only worry in the world is the tide gonna reach my chair 
Sunrise there's a fire in the sky 
Never been so happy 
Never felt so high 

And I think I might have found me my own kind of paradise 

Wrote a note said be back in a minute 
Bought a boat and I sailed off in it 
Don't think anybody gonna miss me anyway 

Mind on a permanent vacation 
The ocean is my only medication 
Wishing my condition ain't ever gonna go away 

This champagne shore washing over me 
It's a sweet sweet life living by the salty sea 
One day you could be as lost as me 
Change you're geography 
Maybe you might be 

Come on in the water it's nice 
Find yourself a little slice 
Grab a backpack of lies 
You never know until you try 
When you lose yourself 
You find the key to paradise

You don't get it, you just don't get it,
You've already forgotten even though I just said it,

Came tonight to put my work on display, bringing New York down to St. Tropez,
You don't get it, you just don't get it,
You've already forgotten even though I just said it,
(One) I won't fall in love,
(Two) I won't ever stop,
(Three) I'm partying all night,

(Four) I'm gonna make it pop